You can certainly see why tears can really flow when you are happy!
Made this one a few minutes ago. Not sure if you are aware, but Caitlyn Masked is taking a hiatus, possibly a permanent one, as her life takes her on an exciting new course.
She titled her post, Times .. They Are a Changin', and it seems they do, whether we want them to or not. Helped my daughter move this week. Really happy for her, and she won't be that far away that I can't hop in a car and be there within an hour, but its a weird feeling. I am in that mode right now with Caitlyn as well. Both were to be expected, and I can still walk 15 steps into my daughter's bedroom (as its mostly staying the same, mostly without clothes and/or computer and lesser amounts of stuffed animals on the bed) and I can wander over to Caitlyn's site or see her captions on the Haven any time I wish as well.
For my daughter, its the next chapter of her life and I am going to be a big part of it, but as much more of an observer than an active participant. I've done my role to see that she's ready and capable of being an adult, fulfilling her spot in society and be tough enough to fight the daily slings, carve out what is rightfully hers, and take no shit from anyone. She's a fighter, and I've seen it daily.
The wondrous thing though is to see how I've grown as well. I am not really that old, and I had her when I didn't think I was capable of being a parent, but I tried my damnedest to be whatever she needed me to be at the time. My effort, and all the best and worst times of my life are right there invested in her for all to see. I wish I could've given her more financial support, nicer clothes, a reliable vehicle, the college she deserves to attend, but she knows that everything we've achieved, we earned it, and that short cuts are only empty promises. I am a much different (and better) person than I was when she was born, and I have her to thank for speeding up this evolution in me.
I kind of feel responsible for Caitlyn being around here, on blogger and the Haven. She always had the talent, and I just gave her some exposure which bloomed into a top notch TG Caption site. For selfish reasons, I would love for her to find the balance between real life and Fantasy, but know that that can be a tenuous and fragile thing. Each of us is a different entity, and as Calvin says, Caitlyn could've been something that filled his life when some parts were not being fulfilled. She definitely became a peer though, and part of that pantheon of captioners I call friends.
That lead to this caption. Most of the friends I had when I started out doing this aren't around much anymore, and its possible that Caitlyn will be joining that list of people that just aren't very active. I've still got Jennifer, Simone, Kaitlyn and Dalene .. though each of them have also disappeared from time to time, luckily for me, they do come back! I'm not sure where I'd be if they all vanished at the same time. Lets hope I never do have to deal with something like that.
I guess I really am a Vampire in a way, as I need new blood to keep me fresh and moving forward. All the friends from way back understood me in a way that takes a good amount of effort to put forth. I love when new people come here and make themselves known. Regulars keep me from feeling out of touch and helpful to the community at large.
I've added a few more people to the Blogs list and hope you all can direct me to some other quality caption sites I may have missed. Caitlyn stays in there unless she directly says in the future that she's done .. and even then I might leave it in there as a reference point for others to see just how much thought, planning, and style can be put into a TG caption.
Just seemed like the perfect song to encapsulate the last week or two.
PS. Hope you didn't mind me using you for the caption Joanna. It seemed like the sort of outfit you would really like to wear, soooooo ... there ya go!
I see how I rate... I don't even make the list! :p
ReplyDeleteYou weren't a peer or a friend when I first joined. You were actually away helping a friend (As you tend to do!) so Crystal was pretty much running things if I remember correctly.
DeleteDidn't think you noticed me until I started stealing your shoes from that wonderful closet of yours. So glad that you did though. From what I've written above, I wonder how many people are still around that get that joke?!?
I could gush about you all day, but then you'd never get any work done! Also, I don't think you are going anywhere so you are stuck with us!
Dee, I am just so honoured you can't believe...
ReplyDeleteI'm writing this with my Boy trying to learn how to blow down a straw and my Girlie upstairs asleep, so I'm a few stations back on the journey you describe there but feel every bit of what you've written. I sincerely hope I can be as good a parent as you have been to your daughter, based on the glimpses I've read on here I'd say I have a lot to live up to.
And I read the posts over at Caitlyn's with the same mixture of happiness for her and sadness that the blog will be discontinued as many others. However, I can't ever claim to have been as much a friend as you have of her either. You have a talent for being a mentress I think, Mistress Dementia. ;)
Oh, and I don't think you're the only one sticking around.
DeleteGlad you liked the caption. Wasn't sure if you would mind being depicted as a bit daft. Nice to see you took it all in stride!
DeleteI actually built the whole caption around that exchange. I was thinking to myself, that I seem to be one of the few captioners to not really take more than a week or 10 days off .. "am I an anomaly or something?" and the bimbo voice hiding somewhere said, "nah, you definitely aren't a sea creature!" and I knew I had to caption it.
PS for those that don't know, I was referencing a "Sea anemone"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sea_anemone
Unless something major comes up, you probably will not ever need to know of a world with out me. :P I appreciate the comment you left on my blog. I hope to keep up this every other day pace on my blog, as I just don't have the back catalog of caps that I used to. At least that I'm comfortable with. I like to have a big buffer of caps, just in case something comes up.
ReplyDeleteThough I might end up missing on the blog and haven, you can still always get in touch with me trough my email, or yim.
I'm hoping that I'll be able to stay in touch with caitlyn, even if it's through emails. I'm very happy for her and what she's been able to achieve. It's wonderful news, even it might mean we will not be able read any more of her beautiful, and some times very naughty captions.
Well, luckily for us, most of your disappearances have been due to technology failing and you come back as quickly as possible!
DeleteVery true! And some times just a hospital stay here and there. heheh. Which speaking of, I might have another one of those coming up! ugh..
DeleteIt's been one tough week, but I'm glad that I can look over and still see your blog light up on my dash board. ^_^
Jennifer,
DeleteWhile I may not have any desire to really read or create any caps or live out my fantasy life of 'Caitlyn' any longer, I have absolutely no intention of leaving my friends behind. I'm not quite sure how I'll keep in touch right now (email? YIM? The Haven? My Blog?...) but I WILL keep in touch!
Love,
Caitlyn
This TG Captioning community is truly unique. I have so enjoyed the Internet relationships I have with so many, including you and Caitlyn. Like you, and I am certain others, we secretly hope Caitlyn will find a balance that lets her remain a presence. who knows? Perhaps she'll find a new inspiration? But either way, I mainly want her to be happy, even if it means we don't see her as often. I suspect I'll be around, although I do realize I am not really a captioner. I don't even know what I would be called, other than a sissy. Still, I feel as though I've been adopted in a way by your community, and I'm grateful As for children, my own experience is that nothing in life impacts a person in quite the same way as a child. Oh, and by the way, I have always been fascinated by Sea Anomalies.
ReplyDeleteSmooch!
Leeanne
I'd consider you a "Sissy Lifestyle Blogger". You are also a creator of mini-captions ... captionettes perhaps? ... so you are definitely a part of our community! It is much more varied than most people think .. from the dreamers of fantasy all the way through to those in the lifestyle.
DeleteI mentioned it on her "Times .. They are a Changing" posting that she might feel differently once the novelty wears off and all the things he is going through now becomes routine .. things like having to work a double or 24 hours in a row due to a blizzard/snow storm or the first Christmas as a nurse. Of course, with the new job Calvin might want to save up to rent his own apartment closer to work, get a decent car, find a girlfriend .. and the job helped move him that way.
I think Calvin still might visit your blog above most of ours. He's done his share of TG Captions, but as an inquisitive guy, I'm sure he wants to read about the rest of your story .. something he's probably not thought about much beforehand, but now that he's been exposed, he'll want to read to the end.
Leeanne,
DeleteI can't echo Dee's sentiments with any more passion... you are most definitely part of the community! Almost every single post you make have all the materials of a caption... a wonderfully emotive image and a story to go along with it. While many caption artists dream of a full and total transformation, there are plenty who dream of a more 'sissy' style transformation. Your blog feeds those desires beautifully.
Love,
Caitlyn
Dee,
ReplyDeleteBefore I get into the meat of this comment I have to thank you for selecting that song. Not only is it appropriate on many levels to your post, but it's a song that I've long loved but never took the time to add to my collection. A quick stop by the iTunes store and now I can play it on repeat for the next few hours!
I can't imagine how bitter sweet it must be to have your daughter finally grow up and leave the nest. Having children always seemed like a no brainer decision... of course I would have children one day. But as I grow older that 'one day' remains off over the horizon. At this point in my life if I did have a child of my own, they would still be in college when I retire. I'd be one of those weird old people at the elementary school parent teacher meetings and might even be assumed to be their grandparent. As my life continues to line up and I plan for the future instead of merely dreaming about the future I see that having children of my own may well never be in the cards for me.
I'm sure that some caption artist will soon take my place at the table of cappers. There always seems to be new blood coming in and while many of their stays are short and brilliant a few will surely stay around for the long haul. And just as you mentored and supported me, they'll surely provide you with new projects to help along! I'm just sorry that I was never really able to mentor anybody myself.
Love,
Caitlyn