I want everyone to know .. everything will be better ..
.. If you are around to enjoy it.
It's a serious subject, and one that is now pretty much shut down .. on Youtube, Facebook, here on Blogger. They are afraid of the litigation I believe .. to where you can't use the words .. and have to use phrases like, "un-alived yourself." instead of trying to tackle it head on.
I won't say that I know how to stop it from happening, or lessen the effects on people like me who have had thoughts like that, and acted on them .. and on the other end, of someone I cared about who had the same ideas that I did. The best thing is to be able to recognize the behaviors and feelings and stop them in their tracks. At least for me. My first attempt was in the late 90's .. I didn't succeed, thankfully.
A few days ago .. a rent increase of 25 percent, my health insurance tripling in price, missing my forever person, etc .. for a moment, I thought about it. And I almost immediately .. I shut it down, and talked to a close friend. I never brought up why I called, but I just needed to feel a connection. It worked. (Please don't worry. I am fine. Sometimes the thoughts just come and you have to deal with them.)
For me, I think it's isolation that triggers it more, along with how hopeless life can be. But I've said in an earlier post sometime in the last month .. things seem to work out in the long run. And I'd never want to hurt any one that is in my life now. I remember being in the ER for my daughter's attempt. That is something I'd never wish on anyone, and I was a lucky parent as she wasn't successful.
I wanted everyone to know that I've been there, and if you are too at that moment .. stop and try to think as rationally as you can .. and get help quickly. If you think someone you know is in that situation, please do what you can to support them, and .. be there for them if you can. There are a number of organizations that should be able to steer you in the right direction. But also .. not everyone can be helped, and it's a matter of time before .. well you know. It's hard to get inside someone's mind, and you can only do your best, and it takes two to tango.
I needed to say all this, and get it out into the open. If this doesn't affect you .. thank goddess for that!
I know this subject is a bit of a downer, so I'm also posting this quickie I made on Christmas Eve morning, which is much lighter in subject content. It's definitely a Dee caption in content and attitude.
Feel free to comment on either caption, both, or anything else you'd like to say. I'm going to make sure this is an AMA (Ask Me Anything) holiday week, so leave a question or anything else, and I'll respond!
Did you survive Whamageddeon this year? I lost on on the 20th of December, in a Walmart bathroom! Urrgghh. it's the 1st time I've lost in 5 or 6 years. Well, now you can listen to if without fear!
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