I don't know when I will be back. Maybe in a day or two if I go insane for a bit. Maybe longer. Keep checking back in.
I lost the love of my life this morning. I can't believe I'm even typing this. She was the gentlest soul I have ever known, and words can't adequately describe what I am feeling inside. I just posted the last caption I had lined up, and it spoke of our plans when all this pandemic shit was over. That isn't going to happen now. I still wanted it out there to show just how much she means to me.
For every bit of an asshole I was, she was the perfect counterweight to keep my centered, and I became a better person for having been with her for over 20 years. Rest in peace Babe! I always thought it would be forever. That just came a bit sooner than I wanted it to be.
Please hug the shit out of your significant other, best friends, family members, etc .. Tell them you love them and how much you'll miss them when they aren't around. That you are thinking about them/ Please do that so that I will make sure that everyone knows how much they are loved, even when it doesn't seem like it.
I am fucking devastated right now. Thank you all for your support in the past, and I am certainly going to need it going forward. Love you all!
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I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThat is heartbreaking, Dee. I am so sorry. If there’s anything we can do for you, let us know.
ReplyDeleteOMG! Take as much time off as you need! Condolences to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteThis is so horrible, and please take all the time you need. You're in my thoughts dear one.
ReplyDeleteI'm deeply sorry for your loss ...
ReplyDeleteTake your time ...
Deepest condolences... can't even imagine what it must be like.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss Dee. Sending you virtual hugs.
ReplyDeletePrayers for your loss to your and your loved ones!
ReplyDeleteDee, I deeply lament for you and your loss of a loved one. No words will ever be sufficient to assuage your pain and grief. :( I feel for you and want to simply hug you and do something for you, but I feel helpless.
ReplyDeletePlease, if you ever feel the compulsion to express your thoughts, you know my email and can email me at any time. (Remember how I emailed you?) I am sorry that you had to lose the most beautiful girl in your life. She must have been beautiful, in soul and body. When the wind caresses you gently across your cheeks, and when the sun shines bright and warms your back and your face, there she is. Take the time that you must, Sis. It is indeed hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I had insomnia tonight and couldn't sleep....so I thought I'd check out the blogs...then I read this horrible horrible news!!!!
ReplyDeleteI so wish I could reach through the screen and hug you and offer what comfort I can...please take care of yourself and come back when you feel ready...we'll all still be here waiting to take you into our arms!!!
You said once that I had a gift for words but in this case words fail me....I can't find a way to express my sorrow at this tragic time...
It's difficult to type while my eyes are blurred with tears!!!
So many of us love you Dee....I hope that gives you a little comfort in the coming days...
Hugs and Love
Kaaren
Dee...."Kaaren" woke me to tell me this awful news, I am so sorry for your loss. It's hard to believe in this dark time that news could get any darker.
ReplyDeleteAlthough I have only recently become a semi-regular reader I have noticed your mentions of her in the conversational portions of your posts and I can see that the two of you shared something special.
"Kaaren" isn't religious but I am, and I'll be praying for you this morning. I'll be praying for you to be strong and for that strength to carry you through the difficult days ahead.
Our thoughts are with you at this time.
Love
Mrs. K.
Take the time you need... so sorry.... hugs
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for you loss.
ReplyDeleteDee,
ReplyDeleteI deeply regret your pain and I wish you all the strength and affection that she would have wished for you and your future.
Lots of encouragement and take good care of yourself.
Dee, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You’re my fellow author and artist, my inspiration, my sister, my brother, and above all else you’re my friend. My dear friend. I can’t possibly comprehend what you’re going through. All I can do is be here for you.
ReplyDeleteEven in your grief, you come through with advice for us all that should go unsaid and still needs to be said all the time. Love those around you, and don’t let them ever think for an instance that they aren’t loved. So, I can’t do this physically as we’re hundreds of miles apart but know that no amount of social distancing would keep me from this. Let me wrap my arms around you and hold you and give you whatever comfort I can. Let me hug the shit out of you.
i am so truly sorry to hear your sad news Dee. Sending you my love
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My deepest condolences to you and your family. I wish I could do more for you, but my mailbox and PM box are always open.
ReplyDeleteYou're in my prayers, and I'll light a candle for you.
Oh, no! I'm so sorry, Dee! You have our deepest condolences, and you know you can reach out anytime if you need to talk or vent or just need a shoulder to cry on. Message me, email me, and if you want a number to call or text, let me know.
ReplyDeleteMy beloved and I will be thinking of you.
So sorry for your loss. I did not want to intrude, but after all the pleasure you have brought to us, I had to. Stay safe and hold on to the memories.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is full of sorrows at the thought of you in so much pain. We love you Dee. /hug /cry
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss. Do what you need to
ReplyDeletedo to get through this...
Be well
Jade
Oh Dee, my heart breaks for you. It's bliss to find someone you love and want to share your life with, so I can't even fathom your pain. I'm so sorry. I know that we're all only "virtual friends" but you are a shining star in our community, and know that we all ache for you and care for you. Hugs�� Elise
ReplyDeleteDee- I am so, SO sorry for you, hon. Please take care. I can't imagine. Big hug to you, Sara Elise
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for your loss, Dee.
ReplyDeleteSorry Dee for your loss
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for your loss, Dee.
ReplyDeleteFrom a sister in Va, I am so sorry to hear of your loss and cant imagine how you must feel. Hang in there. Prayers and good vibes sent your way
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