It was a dark and stormy night. Or was it? I cannot recall it honestly.

Anyway, a voice said to me, "Dee? Sweetie Pie? Shouldn't you enslave the men of this world into the divine pleasures of femininity?"

That was awhile ago, and sure enough, it began to happen .. on Rachel's Haven. Then I started up this crappy blog in 2010. Enjoy!

Friday, October 22, 2010

First discussion topic as suggested by commenters

Here is our first discussion topic as proposed in the posting below.

Martha said...
I always wanted to know if people have specific wished about their transformations. Some seem to know exactly how they want to look like (mostly those who would want to be permanent a woman) others (like me) don't really care or they are at least more open to changes. Like those who like the GS. You can end up as anyone, not always the hot 18 year old blonde cheerleader slut. lol. So my question would be:

Do you have a precise idea of how you'd want to look like as a woman or do you just want to be a female?

I hope that made sense.

I might have to make some admissions here so pull up a chair and let's dish!

I have no desire to be a woman in real life. Maybe 30 days so I could experience it, but definitely not for real and forever. I am pretty happy with who I am, and as everyone that knows me online as Dee, I am "Damien = Dee" in pretty much all ways other than gender (though I'm much more of a suburban punk / biker type than a goth at this point in my life.) I am not portraying some sort of over the top femme or anything like that. Dee is probably a more refined version of Damien, but in essence, there is not much difference between Dee and Damien. It is pretty much why I created Deedee, so that people can have fun with her and I can be a bimbo without the mind-fuck involved.

In general, I love looking at how I would be a different person if circumstances where different, and its why occasionally I will read animal transformation stories too, along with lots of mind control and bimbo creation fiction too.  Loss of power, change of status, swapping of roles, etc ... are all great talking points for me.

The main reason I have set my preferences a certain way is this: not everyone is incredible when making captions, so by following my guidelines, I SHOULD get a caption returned that is acceptable to me. Let me explain a bit more .. I am not fond of male genitalia in captions made for me. There are probably some people out there though that could create an INCREDIBLE caption for me that involves a few penises and me smoking (another thing I'm not fond of) and I'd LOVE the caption. However, I wouldn't want to see someone see me raving about how awesome that caption is, and then piece together something that I find hideous and creepy. I think that with what I've supplied in way of preferences and even pictures, I should expect a caption return that is in keeping with what I like. Will I accept something out of the norm is people ask? Yes, but often I will ask that they not post it to my folder.

Do I have a specific type though that I enjoy more than others? Yes. I would say shortish and curvy, with a nice size set of boobs and sexy legs. I'd prefer a few pounds overweight to waif-like thin. Fair skin with no tan. Pretty much if I *was* a female, that is what I'd like to look like anyway, as referenced by how my mom looked when she was alive and how my daughter is developing. Do I HAVE to be portrayed like that? Hell and no!

So, any other things in this topic that you'd like to discuss in the comments? How would you answer the question that Martha posed?


  1. I've done quite a few caps for you over the years, (More then others) and I always try and change at least a little something in what I have to offer. I don't think I ever really tried something radically different. I think that might be because so many people use you in a caption for the reason of the change. so it's easy to use you in some way as the cause of the TF. Might be fun removing that part entirely and see what happens.

    I always use Mila Kunis as my online persona, but It dosen't mean that's who you have to use in my caps. It does however paint a picture of what I would most likely enjoy. Lately I have been trying to branch out and change whats the norm for cap returns for me. They don't all have to be Bondage and evil, Or even blow job related. I do still enjoy that stuff though. ^_^

  2. Hmm... Well, my tastes always seem to change from time to time. I agree with you Dee on the idea that you can get a caption that doesn't necessarily follow exactly what you want, or what you'd want for yourself, but for whatever reason... it works. And I can understand being careful of how you express that, because you don't want a rush f other 'copycats' if you will.

    I am into the random changes like Martha spoke of. Being a teenaged daughter would be fun; being a young mother would be fun... I don't think I would want to be too old (Rachel thinks I should swap with a three year old and learn everything for myself). A big part of the transformation fantasy is to try out different roles. For me, you can't get much more different than a gender change, though I'd say in real life, I'm absolutely fine the way I am.

    But if I had to pick... I like being cute and adorable, and I like being the girl next door. You know, the girl who is just right, who can be sexy when she needs to be, cute when she needs to be, but is by all standards a beautiful, normal girl. Hair color doesn't matter. Breasts don't matter. I would like to be short though :P

    - Kaitlyn

  3. @ Jenniger

    When I had mentioned the smoking thing, it was with you in mind, as you had made me a series that was never posted in my folder on the haven. Things like that, are usually arranged between me and the person capping me.

    Also, have you modified your preferences on the haven lately? Perhaps you'll stir someones creativity with an update if you hadn't already done so!

    @ Kaitlyn

    I definitely know what you mean about different roles. Who doesn't daydream from time to time? For me, it goes all the way back to when I was in elementary school and had a half day of school, and would see everyone going about their own lives and I'd think about what the people walking down the street, what they were doing while I was in school.


  4. I do in fact have an ideal image of the woman I'd love to be.

    I'd have dark, long hair, an average build, not too skinny, and not too big, my ideal breast size would be D cup. I also would love to have tattoos. If you have ever see Mason Moore, that is really close to how I would want to look.

    My taste really has not changed at all over time. I suppose that is because I would want the change to be permanent and also I do desire to be a woman in real life and the ideal female form I desire is something that I could actually get close to achieving.

    I do love to fantasize about changing roles though. Normal everyday life gets boring and repetitive. Who doesn't dream about being somebody different from time to time? I like to believe that is a starting place for our own dreams of where we want to go in life. :)

  5. @Dee I remember the caption Dee. heh, I have refrained from ever mentioning that I made it for you, or even posting it anywhere to keep it a secret for you. ^_^

    I have updated things, but nothing to drastic. I added more examples of stuff I like, but still nothing that show's stuff outside of BDSM or Blow jobs. Partly because I do enjoy that, It's just not the only thing I enjoy. I guess I should update and try and get that across.

    I think some of my caps are made in that vein because as you already pointed out, It's what's been done for me in the past. maybe I should try some sort of promotion that features other things I like to help break that cycle.

    Again, I would like to say that I love the cap's I receive, and those are big kinks of mine. But I guess I never got across in my first pref's list that it's not the only thing.