Mentia's School for Ex-Boys Graduates the Class of 2020!

Who wants to learn about my various personas? Dissociative identity disorder much?

First off, here's one of my many personas, Mistress Dee, here in my head mistress mode. Who doesn't like to impart discipline on those former males who have slacked through most of their lives? Strict and stern, but still supportive and kind when the situation calls for it.

I thought it would be fun to make a caption where it's a speaker talking to a group of different people all at a gathering. The picture is quite benign, but it's a nod to the person underneath the clothing that we wear. I ran out of space, but there is a guy in the very back on the photo, and I think his face is blurred out, but I was going to reference the "incoming class of 2024 .. they just don't know it yet! Well, now they do, but it's far too late for them to do anything about it!"

I don't think I have to explain anything else, right? I've offered the AMA (Ask Me Anything) for the rest of the week anyhow, so just submit your questions down below in the comments, as this is a blog exclusive, as I couldn't imagine offering this to someone on a caption trade.

On to the first question for the AMA! Chelle asked, "Your personas are very well defined, which I find very fun. How did they start out and how have they developed over time?"

Good question. I think I'll do my best to keep it from going 15 pages of text.

When I first joined the Haven, I had a second part of my "name" which, if you've ever emailed me, you'll see in that tag. So I was Dementia .. which was a spirit that had possessed me, and made me female. She herself was possibly 666 years old, which every year on my birthday on the Haven, I roll the birth year ahead one to keep my age at 666 .. and the running gag is it's like Jack Benny, who is forever 39 years old. A female demon is NOT going to reveal her real age, right?

Well, needless to say, it's hard to keep THAT up as a persona for very long, and people needed an actual name for me to talk with, so I went .. Dementia .. Dee Mentia! Why not?!? Makes sense!

And that worked for quite a while. BUT .. over time, Dee honestly became my female persona, literally just my male self Damien, but in female form. That worked in discussions and becoming friends with others online, BUT I would sometimes get these captions where Dee was doing things that are not congruent to who I see myself as .. as a person. "Dee exclaimed, "I can't WAIT to suck your dick!" is not something that I would knowingly say, and it was jarring to see it in print.

One of my preferences though was a "loss of power" but taking it to some of the extremes was not something I wanted to see Dee, the actual Dee that I am, act out in ways that make me feel odd. SO I figured that anything overtly sexual, or bimboish, submissive to men, etc .. would be Dee Dee. As time has gone on, and I've become more accustomed to sissy captions and more cross dressing than the magical stuff I used to do almost exclusively, Dee Dee can also be a sissy or drag queen name.

That way, people can still caption me, and I can read stories I appreciate, and possibly run through my brain as a scenario, without having a huge disconnect for myself .. and many others too who have come to see me as one of the few dominant creators in the TG scene. Right now, I'm thinking that Simone might be the only one still around doing that along with me.

I cannot tell you how many captions over the years, at the Haven, and now with other online friends with their own blogs, that have had ME be the instrument of change in their captions. I LOVE THIS, and I support anyone that wants to use me as a literary device, a la Sissy Kaaren and her Dee the Therapist series on her blog. To my thinking, it's another way to make the community grow and share a commonality. It's an absolute honor to be thought of, and "tributed" so to speak.

So whichever persona I am portraying at the time, know that I love them all. Maybe I will have another along the path I am leading. They've all grown organically, and that's the best way to be. I'm not the same person I was back in 2008, at least not in the TG community, and I'm grateful for those who have let me grow into the person I am now, and each identity contains a good portion of my DNA, regardless of what situation we put him/her into.

I am definitely looking for more questions as this was fun to do. Some point soon, I might go over some of my "in-jokes" or references that are unique to me, like the bench captions for instance. They will make sense to someone that doesn't recognize it, but have a special layer for those "in the know!"