Friday, December 31, 2021

For Auld Lang Syne .. 2021 Is In the Rear View Mirror

2021 came in with a lot of hope .. and through all the shit, it still brought us hope for the upcoming 2022.

2021 was much better than the previous year. I think that goes without saying. For many people, these last 12 months were mostly a continuation of 2020, but with less Armageddon raining down on them. For me, I did take some stock of my life, and tried to figure out where I fit in going forward, marching towards the rest of my existence on this third rock from the sun.

It's still amazing that I look at things in a divided way .. everything is either from before March 2020, or since March 2020. I can't helping thinking within those parameters. I guess it's to be expected I guess. "Wow, that was back in 2019, so she (my forever person) would have known about .." or "She never got to see .."

It's much easier to deal with now, but it still affects everything that I ponder. I am so blessed to have a new girlfriend that understands, and allows me the space and support to comprehend everything  and lets me grieve on my own terms. (Damn, this is so hard to write.)  Christmas was an adventure, as it was her first time 'celebrating' without her mother alive, but we were there for each other, and muddled through it, and had a decent enough time to enjoy the holidays as best we could. Her family was relatively inviting to me as well, so that is a plus.

As I'm writing this, I am back at the apartment, and since I was at the GF's place over Christmas weekend, I was able to compartmentalize most of my thoughts, but am alone now until New Year's Eve. The "olden days" are playing in my mind, and the distractions have faded, so I'm facing them head on at the moment.

I am feeling sad, but there is such a strong hope for what is still to come in my life though. I've got more things to experience, and more things to share with a new person .. with many new people. I still have memories to get me through, and the chance to make more too, regardless of the before and after nature of it all.

I hope that 2021 treated you fairly at least, and let you thrive, and be comfortable in your own skin. I wish that whatever charms and goodness that came into your life so far, will multiply at least threefold in 2022.

So raise your glass if you are wrong .. In all the right ways.
All my underdogs. We will never be, never be; Anything but loud,
And nitty gritty dirty little freaks.
Won't you come on, and come on, and raise your glass;
Just come on, and come on, and raise your glass!

Pink was my forever person's favorite artist. Whenever she was sad, or felt left out, she'd just CRANK the music up and sing along, shout along, dance along. Raise your glass for her tonight, OK? Thanks!


  1. Happy New Year with all of our love
    Hugs and kisses from
    Me and the Mrs


    1. Thank Kaaren, and Mrs. K too!

      Hope you had a great holiday!

  2. Happy new year Dee. Yes we all need to dig in heels and get out of the enforced (understandably for a while) rut and embrace better ways. Sorry for mixed metaphors. Party time now.

    1. Happy New Year, Aidan! No partying for me at the moment. Pretty much everyone I know is quite sick. Hoping this will get better soon!

  3. There's always a story....
    My father was an alcoholic dirtbag....I would piss on his grave if I ever bothered to find out where his miserable remains were buried....
    That being said....his grandfather was the sweetest man I ever knew....he was born in Glasgow Scotland and remained totally Scottish even though he emigrated to the states when he was in his twenties....
    He raised six children....a mixed lot at best....some wonderful and some not....
    He taught me to appreciate Scotch Whisky when I was thirteen years old....He took me to Scotland to visit his relatives....I guess they were my relatives too....anyway....he took me to the pub almost every day and we drank until we could barely stand....
    He was my pal and I was his American Agent as he called me then.....
    I don't have a lot of good memories about my childhood but spending time with my Grandda stands out.....that's not a misspelling by the way....he was my Grandda....
    He didn't care that I wasn't one of the boys....
    He loved me just because I was part of him....
    He loved me unconditionally....
    That's why it hurt so bad when he still hurts after all these will always hurt but it doesn't overwhelm me like it once did...
    His Aunts and Uncles hired a bagpiper to play at his funeral and "Auld Lang Syne" just tears me up ever since....they also played Harry Lauder singing "We're No Awa' Tae Bide Awa"
    That reduced me to tears....
    I've been up all night drinking a bottle of 21 year old single malt scotch and I'm just drunk typing at this point....but....he taught me that life was worth living and that living could be fun....
    I miss him still after the decades he's been gone....the only good man I ever knew in my youth!!!!'s the scotch you see....I just wanted to talk about him....and the title of your post....Auld Lang Syne....brought me back to that summer....where we were pals and my world was good!!!

    1. I love your stories, whether they are sexy or poignant. This one is much more in the latter category. I am so glad that you have great memories of your Grandda. I just lost my last grandparent a few weeks ago, and just had the memorial service right after Christmas.

      Continued blessings to you and your wonderful Mrs. K!

  4. 2021 is the year that I finally started transitioning. I have long suspected that I was trans, and recent events have confirmed it. I have been received with love and understanding from everyone important in my life and the general sense of relief is indescribable. Thank you for all your captions, you are one of the best and I hope that this new year works out for us all.

    1. Wonderful! So happy for you, and even more so that you have lots of support, love and understanding to lift you up higher.

      And thank you for the compliment. I've got my fingers crossed for all of us to have a wonderful new year!