Sometimes you have to speak your mind, while you are still allowed to have one.
I mentioned a few posts back that I really hadn't had a good day. Figured I would talk about it now. If you don't wish to read further, I don't mind at all, just want to get this out and written down so I might be able to comprehend it better.
You may have read about issues that came up regarding my daughter recently. Well, during that incident, they needed to do x rays, and of course, that means a pregnancy test in case she was "with child" before they could do all the other diagnostic things they needed to do. She hadn't had a period in a few months as she had been on the depo shot recently but wasn't able to get one due to a fuck up with her health insurance. Once it was determined she wasn't pregnant, they did all her tests and she ended up being fine after a few weeks of PT.
The doctors were concerned about the lack of period, and that once it came, she was in agony for an entire week. Further testing came back that she doesn't produce eggs very often, and that she is quite unlikely to have babies on her own. As one could imagine, she is NOT taking this well at all, especially since she's had two close friends announce their own pregnancies within the last week or so. I can only imagine her emotions as she congratulates them, knowing it might never happen for her, even though she should have a good 15-20 year window of opportunity.
In a way, I feel like a shitheel too, because it has always been a joke between us that I don't want grandkids for a very long time. Things like, "better lock your door or I'm going to go in and tie up your fallopian tubes while you're sleeping!" and her retorts of, "I KNOW I'm ovulating, parental unit! I bet there are boys up the street awaking to the smell of my musk right now!" Yes, she definitely has my sense of humor. Going to be hard to joke about something like this in the future, though I know she knows we love her very much, and will support her. I am not upset that I'll probably never be a grandparent, as that should be her choice, and I would never push her either way, but it does suck that she doesn't have a complete set of options at her disposal.
Where this really hurts me though is this needless bull-fuckery going on in Indiana and in other states where religious assholes are trying to "Defend their freedoms" by denying others theirs. The main argument I'm hearing is that marriage is supposed to be mainly for procreation, and that can only be done of course by a man and a woman. It's the normal course of human nature! How fucking pompous of them to define what a marriage is and even more so, that a woman's value seems to be tied into pumping out babies. This isn't just about not serving gay people pizza at their wedding reception, there are bigger issues that come into play about whether religious beliefs and laws are the supreme law of the land that could supersede what the governments are trying to enforce.
My understanding as a former catholic school attendee, is that, "Render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar's, and unto God the things that are God's" where you follow the authority which has hold of you on this earthly domain. Furthermore, the compassion and social justice work that Jesus did makes it even more likely to me that he would have reached out to those oppressed and embraced them, In a way, I see a striking resemblance here to what Jesus himself did to his own religion at the time, and rebelled against the ingrained dogma and corruptions that the Jewish temple had sown. This time it's the flock themselves that need to tell its leaders exactly what they are doing wrong.
If the gays, or women, having rights offends you so much, just let them wallow in their own filth and deal with the wrathful god when their life is over. It shouldn't be YOUR concern what is happening to THEIR soul. It is between them and whatever supernatural entity. If they are given their own choice to make decisions, then they deserve the afterlife they've got coming to them. As Jesus put it in John, ""My kingdom is not of this world. If my kingdom were of this world, my servants would have been fighting, that I might not be delivered over to the Jews. But now as it is, my kingdom is not from the world." Hence, don't worry about having black and whites only water fountains .. whoops I meant, bakeries for straight people and "separate but equal" bakeries for gays. There I go again, stirring it up. Sorry, I cannot window dress bigotry as anything more than the shit sandwich it actually is!
What if God was one of us? Just a slob like all of us?
How this ties into transgender issues seems more than natural to me ... Our bodies often betray us as to how we wish to be and how we truly feel. When a religion tries to regulate normality, there are many who don't fit their cookie-cutter definitions. God created us in his image, most religions will parrot back to us. If we don't conform to that standard, is it OUR FAULT we are how we are made? Religion states that we are to blame. Why though? Not sure you've noticed but there are way too many fucked up people in this world .. either God better make a new template, or accept that perhaps "God" is just as flawed as we are. Perhaps we are the first draft of a term paper that God needs to hand in to Diety School on Monday and we are in the process of being spell checked? Why does it seem that for every rule in our real world pertaining to science, nature etc ..., there is never an absolute rock solid exception of that rule? Even those laws considered immutable, there is probably an exception we just haven't learned about. I wonder why?
Maybe here is a new thought .. GOD LOVES DIVERSITY! God loves to color outside the lines with every crayon in her arsenal. There is wonder in everything from the tiniest one celled organism up through the entire known universe, just waiting to be observed and wondered about. When you think about it that way, why should we define anything as "against God's will" when we see that vast enormity of life's playground unfold for us in unlimited glory!?!
Now here is where you come in. Tell me I'm a atheistic asshole with a liberal agenda and how dare I post this on Easter Sunday. Tell me I am not wrong, but misguided. Tell me that I'm perfectly justified in feeling this way. Tell me how you feel about what is going on and why it's a good thing or why it's the end of civilization as we know it. Tell me something!